It is always difficult to maneuver the food through my mutilated constricted belly.
I will not try another time to work employed at a job, where I have to sit for hours and need a functioning digestion. This just doesn’t work when I sit. And the bad thing is, when I force myself to do so, my eyes get inflamed and I risk another bowelswitch, which is the most hurtful and cruelest thing I ever have experienced (4 times) in my life and it lasts at least half a year, till it feels kind of normal again.

I feel quite good now, that it is sure, that my belly will be investigated and that I have it clear for myself, that I will never work employed again, till this isn‘t repaired and this medical failsurgery has been reversed.

UPDATE: I went to the hospital on July 13th, to finally get this laparoscopic investigation done. I was sent home on the next day, because the surgeon, who promised me to do the investigation, had too many things to do. This laparoscopic investigation has been postponed and will be performed at the end of August.

In the meantime I will do gardening, cooking, DJ-ing and work self employed as Graphic Designer at .